its been a while since my latest post..
berhubung gw juga gada kerjaan..jadilah gw ngepost lagi..
jadi..sekarang gw udah kuliah..
I'm a college student now B-)
meskipun gue tidak berekspektasi apapun kalau kehidupan kuliah gw di u*tar akan menarik..,but at least ada harapan kalau gw akan menjadi anak dkv cemerlang ..
kayak alumni2 yang dateng ke sekolah dlu datang dengan muka sumringah dan bangga..
but, I never thought my 'early' college life would be this bad..
I hope I wont spend my entire college life like this..
dan sebentar lagi, minggu is my bday :D
I hv a special unique number for this bday..91011..:P
mungkin itu angka ter-bagus di sepanjang sejarah ulang tahun gue..
and I was hope something special will happen in that beautifulnumber day :)
(maybe hv a bf who I love exactly after hisdeclarationoflove like anyone else?Buahahha)
sayangnya,
maybe this could be the worst year..
walopun biasanya juga nothing special..,tp taun lalu sweet sventeen gw ckup berkesan menurut gue.
nci gue yg pergi ke ntt tanggal 3 kemaren..
dan kayaknya saking hectic nya ni minggu, kurang ada yang inget gw ultah ni minggu
jadilah mungkin kami sedikit sepi makan2 hanya berempat hehohehehe
gw emang kurang seneng merayakan sesuatu di hari minggu, yang dikarenakan
besoknya senin..and i hate monday..
terlebih senin ini gw uts..teori pula..sejarah pula..dan banyak bahannya.
apalagi dalam suasana gw ga gitu betah di kelas, di kuliah gue..
entah dikarenakan suasana, ato apapun lah..ato gw kurang cepet beradaptasi..atau gw ga jago sksd emang..
ditambah dengan porak-poranda tanggal 6 kemarin insiden tidak-bawa-kartu-ujian dan hampir ga bisa ikut ujian hampir buat gue nangis..
dengan prosedur yang super ribet, dilempar sana-sini..
dijawab2 dengan judes, ga ditanggepin, lari2 susah payah, telat setengah jam, but thx God gambar gw well-done..belom cukup itu,
hari yang gue anggep lumayan gara2 ada Hyun Bin tampil di indo:P
ternyata menjadi hari super kacau itu..plus ditambah dengan kekunci di lift sendirian , dengan kondisi mati mesin mati lampu..*super horor super thriller* yang untungnya pas dipencet2 asal balik ke lantai awal..
pulang buru-buru, dan ternyata sesi hyun bin nya uda lewat..wat a fuckin day..
soo sooo..this weekend, I'm no longer 17--bcos actually I love these "I'm a seventeen years old girl" phrase..LOL
sounds like semi grown up girl, but still teenager.
and It'll officially 18 years of my single status. haha
sometimes I'm proud of that (idk why), but it sounds pathetic in the same time.
but, I must be grateful for all I have, all things I've been through..
Thanks to God, He still gives a chance for me to live until now..
enough for my cuap-cuap yang super panjang ini..dan gw ga berharap ada yang tahan baca ini :D
seeya in another post!
Jumat, 07 Oktober 2011
Kamis, 13 Januari 2011
2011
nothing special to write..
just for a journal for me,reminder for the next time.
yeah, new year (again). I started this blog when it was new year too last year haha
with no reason, I am TI RED of being alone and single all this time :P
walopun kemaren2 "dia" sempet deketin lagi, tapi yaa selalu kandas.
"dia" cuma dateng disaat2 dia perlu, kesepian, or etc saat2 butuh,
and I feel like a trash. but, though my mind say NO, my heart and mouth just never can say NO to him. :(
and it goes on..sampai kandas lagi dan lagi. kita berdua ga jodoh rasanya,
walopun he's the only one ever made me felt so deep in love.
dilema rasanya antara rasa "kesepian" yang juga melanda dengan rasa penolakan dari otak yang kuat.
he's never change, and me too. It'll never works, and we both knew it,
we just hurting each other.
soo many many things happened in my 2010, dan semua kerasa cepet banget.
from how I through my broken hearted, adapted with my new friends in the class, and so many many happiest and sadest memories.
It feels so hard, but now I think I can remember that with smile on my face :)
why time flies so fasttt?I feel like I'm wasted all the time.
now,I'm in 3rd year, which means I must face the final exam.
dann gue belom belajar apapunn osh! belom ada persiapan apapun juga.
oh, 2010 juga taun berat gue nentuin kuliah..:(
setelah doa2 lama dan finally gue yakin ambil DKV dii..Untar.
walopun sebenernya ga kepengen masuknya Untar, but it seems I hv no choice.
okelah, jalanin aja kedepannya, hope it'll fun and I could enjoy it:)
gue udah lama banget ga nulis disini, dan sekalinya nulis akirnya panjang.
belakangan sering banget ngegalau yang dikarenakan kesepian.
setelah tadi ngbrol2 dan menjawab bbrp pertanyaan guru BP gue,
gw agak2 seneng sebenernya dpt pertanyaan2 'semacam' itu.
it feels so long long time ago, there's person care and ask bout myself and my own life.dan beberapa diantaranya, membuat gw berpikir sampai sekarang.
tentang plan gw bbrp taun kedepan, dan advice plus cerita dia yang cukup mengagetkan.
dan lagi2 ditanya kapan punya pacar?owww.musti kah gw mengulang jawaban "ga laku2"?
HAHA.gatau lagi mau jawab apa enaknya.
gw pkir masi remaja, masi lama. tp setelah dipikir2 lagi, dengan waktu yang cepet banget, kayaknya cuma gw yang masi sendiri *straightface*.
yes, I cant deny it anymore,I'm feeling lonely in this crowded lover world,
with no person besides that could understands me well.
sometimes,I keep questioning to myself who I really am now..
I'm sick with all of this. errrr
just for a journal for me,reminder for the next time.
yeah, new year (again). I started this blog when it was new year too last year haha
with no reason, I am TI RED of being alone and single all this time :P
walopun kemaren2 "dia" sempet deketin lagi, tapi yaa selalu kandas.
"dia" cuma dateng disaat2 dia perlu, kesepian, or etc saat2 butuh,
and I feel like a trash. but, though my mind say NO, my heart and mouth just never can say NO to him. :(
and it goes on..sampai kandas lagi dan lagi. kita berdua ga jodoh rasanya,
walopun he's the only one ever made me felt so deep in love.
dilema rasanya antara rasa "kesepian" yang juga melanda dengan rasa penolakan dari otak yang kuat.
he's never change, and me too. It'll never works, and we both knew it,
we just hurting each other.
soo many many things happened in my 2010, dan semua kerasa cepet banget.
from how I through my broken hearted, adapted with my new friends in the class, and so many many happiest and sadest memories.
It feels so hard, but now I think I can remember that with smile on my face :)
why time flies so fasttt?I feel like I'm wasted all the time.
now,I'm in 3rd year, which means I must face the final exam.
dann gue belom belajar apapunn osh! belom ada persiapan apapun juga.
oh, 2010 juga taun berat gue nentuin kuliah..:(
setelah doa2 lama dan finally gue yakin ambil DKV dii..Untar.
walopun sebenernya ga kepengen masuknya Untar, but it seems I hv no choice.
okelah, jalanin aja kedepannya, hope it'll fun and I could enjoy it:)
gue udah lama banget ga nulis disini, dan sekalinya nulis akirnya panjang.
belakangan sering banget ngegalau yang dikarenakan kesepian.
setelah tadi ngbrol2 dan menjawab bbrp pertanyaan guru BP gue,
gw agak2 seneng sebenernya dpt pertanyaan2 'semacam' itu.
it feels so long long time ago, there's person care and ask bout myself and my own life.dan beberapa diantaranya, membuat gw berpikir sampai sekarang.
tentang plan gw bbrp taun kedepan, dan advice plus cerita dia yang cukup mengagetkan.
dan lagi2 ditanya kapan punya pacar?owww.musti kah gw mengulang jawaban "ga laku2"?
HAHA.gatau lagi mau jawab apa enaknya.
gw pkir masi remaja, masi lama. tp setelah dipikir2 lagi, dengan waktu yang cepet banget, kayaknya cuma gw yang masi sendiri *straightface*.
yes, I cant deny it anymore,I'm feeling lonely in this crowded lover world,
with no person besides that could understands me well.
sometimes,I keep questioning to myself who I really am now..
I'm sick with all of this. errrr
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